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One teacher’s perspective on the night before school.

It’s a strange feeling knowing you don’t have to go back to work for a whole term. My usual feelings at this time would be mixed with apprehension, a little anxiety and excitement of seeing my work colleagues. But tonight is different. Very different. It feels kind of strange and surreal. Teaching I think does that to you. You give your ALL to this profession and it takes hold of ALL of you; tightly. There’s a point where you must learn to reset your mind to be ready for the onslaught of all that’s to come. This is teaching. Be ready to roll with the highs and lows.

So it’s strange not to be hyping myself up right now, giving myself little pep talks and connecting with my peers to empathize with how they’re handling it. “We can do this” we might say to one another, “it’s only 10 weeks, you’ve got this!”. But why is this? Am I alone in feeling this way? And when did I start to feel like this? As I reflect on this, and if I am honest with myself, I think it stems from a feeling of burn out. I never thought I would say this or feel this, but it’s just where I am right now. How I got here, well I would like to explore this over my time off. My time away from it all. The pressures, the expectations, the emails, the self-questioning, the good and bad lessons and the daily tricks to keep my class functioning. I long to feel the drive, the passion, the exhilaration of teaching again. And if you are one of those teachers currently in the threshold of the feelings that come with the day before heading back to school, then I am with you. I understand you. My hope for you exceptionally special species of humans is — YOU can do this and YOU will do it, super well. Because you care, you are strong and are a TEAM. Enjoy your term!